Liam Payne’s death shocked the world. Directioners are at a loss

Outside of the CasaSur Palmero Hotel in Buenos Aires, Argentina, a makeshift memorial filled with letters, flowers, and candles has been growing since the untimely death of Liam Payne, who rose to fame as a member of the 2010s British boy band One Direction. On Wednesday evening, David Kraventz, the Security Secretary of Buenos Aires, confirmed to Rolling Stone that the 31-year-old died after a fall from his hotel balcony. Since the news broke, One Direction fans across generations and continents have mourned Payne — and remember what their favorite boy band represented. 

Born in Wolverhampton, England, on Aug. 29, 1993, Payne’s journey with the music industry began with the reality television series The X-Factor. After auditioning for the show in 2008, the then-14-year-old sang Frank Sinatra’s “Fly Me to the Moon” but was cut from the show before making it far. He auditioned again two years later, with a performance of Ella Fitzgerald’s “Cry Me a River.” Later in the program, he was paired with Niall Horan, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, and Zayn Malik — the group that would become One Direction.

While the boy band finished third in The X-Factor competition, they became one of the most successful boy bands in music history. 1D released four studio albums together and one additional album following the departure of Malik in 2015 before going on an indefinite hiatus. In his solo career, Payne released his debut album, LP1, in 2019 and collaborated with artists like Rita Ora, ‘NSync’s JC Chasez, French Montana, and J Balvin. His single “Strip That Down” reached Number 10 on the Billboard Hot 100. Just two weeks before his death, Payne made headlines by attending Horan’s concert at Buenos Aires’ Movistar Arena. 

Throughout the One Direction hiatus, Payne became extremely vocal about his troubles with becoming famous at a young age, including his problems with substance abuse and a 100-day rehab stay in 2023. “I was in bad shape up until that point, and I was really happy more than anything when I arrived to kind of put a stopper on life and work,” Payne said in a YouTube video announcing his return. “I definitely don’t need those things anymore. The party’s over.”

As police investigate Payne’s death, fans are still reeling from the news. Maria Sherman, a music reporter at the Associated Press and author of Larger Than Life: A History of Boy Bands from NKOTB to BTS, tells Rolling Stone that while people have always reacted strongly when stars and celebrities have died young, there’s a specific tendency for internet fandoms to eulogise artists who either grew up or got their start on social media platforms. “One Direction became successful because they allowed fans to participate in their story,” she says. “Fans were watching and commenting and interacting with the group and each other on social media during the X-Factor days, [their] career, and until their hiatus. A lot of One Direction fans are reconnecting with their online community and checking in on one another, which I think speaks to the intensity and loving nature of the fanbase that [One Direction] were able to curate in their time. That’s very powerful.”

In the hours after Payne’s death was confirmed, hundreds of Argentinian fans gathered at the singer’s hotel to add to his vigil — singing One Direction hits and crying. “As soon as I heard, I dropped everything and came running, hoping it was just fake news, that it wasn’t real. But when I saw them taking him away, my heart broke,” Ariana, a fan from the city of  Lanús, told Rolling Stone Argentina. “I couldn’t take it anymore, I broke down. All those hopes were completely gone.”

Micaela, another longtime fan, arrived at the vigil with an original One Direction flag from the group’s 2014 tour. “He really had a beautiful role in the band. They all loved each other. They are brothers, literally. And they still are even though Liam is no longer in this world,” she said. “I wanted to see the five of them together one more time.  Unfortunately, now we are going to see them, but at the funeral. It is horrible, really horrible.” 

Much of the emotion and heartbreak revolves around the pivotal role One Direction played in many fans’ adolescence. “I was like 12 when I heard them for the first time, which is peak boy band consumption age. It was just so special,” Izzy Deveaux, a 25-year-old Arizona native tells Rolling Stone through tears. Deveaux was an active member of the fandom on social media and has continued to support many of the members’ careers. “It felt like they loved us. And as I’ve grown up, continuing to listen to their music has been a constant reminder of all those good times. I’ve made some of my best friends and most fun memories because of that band. I’m very sad.” 

Alison H., a 26-year-old from Canada, has been a fan of One Direction for over a decade. She began listening to the group when their first album dropped in 2012, and remained a fan throughout high school, even seeing them in concert around her 16th birthday. “It still doesn’t feel very real. I don’t know Liam obviously, but it’s a jarring thing to think about a familiar face in my childhood passing away,” she says. “Grief is kind of weird. There’s a quality to it that isn’t necessarily about Liam as a person, but more what he represented to a lot of us growing up. He represents a part of youth passing away.”

For 18-year-old Rhode Island fan Isabella Mazzone, her first memory of One Direction was watching the boys on X-Factor when she was just four. She can remember spending time with her best friends putting on their own versions of One Direction concerts — which makes Payne’s death difficult for her. “It wasn’t just his vibrant personality that defined Liam, but his giving heart and incredible generosity,” Mazzone says. “ It is hard to believe that Liam is gone. But the thing is, I don’t think he can ever truly be gone. A piece of him is going to live on forever through the lives of each and every person he touched with his profound talent, joy, and most importantly, kindness.”

As a 19-year-old from Germany who discovered the group during the pandemic, Leni-Sophia Kajczyk knows she is a later One Direction adopter than most. But after listening to their songs, and watching videos of the boys’ relationships, she says she was captivated and soon created multiple fan accounts on Twitter and TikTok. “None of my friends were listening to One direction. I had no one to talk about this,” she says. “So then I  decided to make a new Tiktok account and it turned into a whole fan page. I got so many new friends from it. And even friends who aren’t fans, like friends in my real life, called me, texted me. ‘Did you hear the news? How are you? Is everything okay?’ And then my internet friends, my One Direction friends, we just started calling each other, texting over group chats. I was crying the whole time. I was up until 4 a.m. And today was such a weird feeling. I woke up and realized it wasn’t just a nightmare. This is real life.” 

The news of Payne’s death is also clouded by recent allegations made by the singer’s ex-fiance Maya Henry. Since their split in 2022, Henry has vaguely alluded, without mentioning Payne’s name, that their relationship was troubled, and alleged that Payne harassed and continued to contact her after they broke up. Since Payne’s death, stans have wrestled with how to eulogise the singer and recognise the complexity of the situation. 

Ghia Hong, a 28-year-old from the Philippines, has been posting TikToks encouraging casual viewers to not equate fans’ grief for co-signs on Payne’s alleged actions. “This is hard to process,” she says. “If I could sum it up in one word, it’s probably: confused.” 

Lara Pinto, a 21-year-old from Belgium has been vocal about letting One Direction fans and supporters work out whatever they’re feeling. “I really haven’t been a fan of [Payne]  in [recent years] but he’s still a part of my youth, and he’s someone who I grew up loving, looking up to and finding comfort in,” she says. “It’s conflicting. I had difficult teenage [years] and I remember the sense of safety and belonging I felt with One Direction. To know that a part of that is no longer here? It’s bringing up a lot of emotions.”

Tributes and eulogies for Payne have continued to pour in. On Thursday morning, Payne’s family released a statement asking the public for privacy. “We are heartbroken,” they wrote, “Liam will forever live in our hearts and we’ll remember him for his kind, funny, and brave soul.” And in Buenos Aires and around the world, fans continue to remember Payne. Payne’s bandmates also put out a joint statement on Thursday. “We’re completely devastated by the news of Liam’s passing. In time, and when everyone is able to, there will be more to say. But for now, we will take some time to grieve and process the loss of our brother, who we loved dearly,” Niall, Harry, and Zayn wrote. “The memories we shared with him will be treasured forever. For now, our thoughts are with his family, his friends, and the fans who loved him alongside us. We will miss him terribly. We love you Liam.”

From Rolling Stone.